I have always struggled with my weight. I have been on countless diets, and I have given up countless times. I am the definition of an emotional eater (except, I eat for any emotions, not just when I’m upset), and my sweet tooth knows no limits. I also, genuinely, never really feel full. It’s like my ability to feel full was switched off many moons ago – probably by my own doing.
Although, I’ve lost weight previously, I slowly found that it had started coming back with a vengeance and I knew I had to do something about it. With this, I took a long hard look at myself, and my bad habits (and why I feel the need to sabotage my body), and I decided to re-join Weigh-Less. The reason Weigh-Less works for me the most is because it teaches me portion sizes, which I am useless with. Put food in front of me, and I’ll eat it. I lose track of how much I should eat, as opposed to how much I want to eat.
It also meant eating really healthily. I made the decision to stop drinking alcohol. This has been one of the hardest parts and I have had a really tough time with this as people just don’t understand why you’d want to stop drinking, and feel that you aren’t fun anymore because of it.
It has been a fairly slow, long process but I am just happy that the weight is coming off. Over the last 6 months, I have lost 7kg, and I am a total of 19cm down. My BMI has gone from 24.9 to 22.4. I feel better about myself, I have more energy.
It hasn’t all been sunshine and rainbows, and there have many tears along the way as I would sob to Ross, “I just want to eat chocolate!“. I’ve still got a way to go – I’d like to lose about 3kg more, despite my BMI being at the right level now. I’m currently in between sizes (an 8 is a teeny bit too small, but a 10 is just that little bit too big), so I think the extra 3kg will help me drop down to a proper size 8.
I didn’t realize how difficult the last few kg would be, as they are coming off veeeery slowly. I’ll lose a couple hundred grams, and then put a few grams back on. It’s like two steps forward, one step back at the moment. Now, I’ve decided that the only way to beat these last 3kg is to smash some exercise. Running is my absolute favourite form of exercise – I’m not such a fan of gyms. I have a 10km race coming up in November, and have devised a training programme that will involve running four times a week. Bye, bye fat!