Random. Something has been on my mind for the last couple of weeks, and it feels sort of like a revelation for me.
It’s no secret that I have always had issues with my weight and body issues. I am only slightly overweight (about 1-2kg overweight) but I am not happy with my weight nonetheless and I don’t feel comfortable in my skin.
I would like to lose 10kg. That’s the most weight I could ‘healthily’ lose for my height. Everyone tells me it’s too much, but having weighed that little before, I know that’s when I felt best about myself.
I’ve tried most ways of losing weight. I’ve been on Weighless a couple times – and guess what, the weight always comes back on (you cannot weigh food for life, and the concept of weighing-in in front of people made me more nervous about weigh-in, rather than inspiring me to lose weight). I used to dread going in and being judged if I had maybe had a small treat, and knowing it would show in my weight. You also tend to become too concerned over a silly number, and I didn’t want to get obsessed.
I’ve tried gymming a lot, which invariably led to me mistakenly thinking I could eat more, or not as strictly. I’ve learnt that weight loss and health relies on 80% diet, 20% exercise. So, just because you exercise every day, doesn’t mean you can eat whatever you want. Like Supersized McD’s meals. Been there.
I’ve tried Banting. It worked for two weeks, I lost 2kg, and then suddenly just started piling on weight. I was overcompensating and eating more than I should – the book pretty much says you can eat as much as you want of the ‘green list’ foods, but this is simply not true, and it’s not as easy as it sounds. The difficulty I also found with Banting was the fact that I exercise means I need an increased amount of carbs compared to someone who doesn’t. However, do you know how difficult it is to find that balance? I still couldn’t get the balance right after a couple weeks – I felt I had to resort to an all or nothing approach with regards to carbs, and it simply isn’t feasible to exercise regularly without some kind of carb intake (in my opinion – please don’t shout at me, Banters).
So what was my revelation? This has all been unnecessary. I’ve had to learn how to love myself (a very difficult thing for me) first and foremost – to be happy with who I am. I have come to terms with the fact that my metabolism is not nearly as efficient as it once was, and I can see that change in my body.
I have realized that all I need to aim for is health. I need to put myself and my health first – weight loss is just a bonus. So, I have started making healthy decisions. For example, I bought wholewheat pasta and brown rice, instead of white pasta and white rice. I am being sure to drink plenty water, and to incorporate plenty veggies, and a reasonable amount of fruit in my diet. Most importantly, I am more aware of portion sizes. Dishing up onto a smaller side plate, measuring my protein sizes with the palm of my hand, that sort of basic concept. I’m avoiding alcohol within reason. I’ve stopped obsessing. Do I want a cupcake? Yes, I do. It’s not the end of the world, and I’ll just be sure to go for a run at the end of the day to compensate for it. Should I have the entire box of cupcakes? No, I shouldn’t, and I won’t. If I know I’m going out for dinner, I’ll be sure to have a small lunch so that I don’t have to restrict myself. Likewise, if I go out for dinner, I aim to eat half of what is served on the plate – the other half will be lunch the next day.
It’s as simple as that. Just doing this resulted in me losing 4kg in two weeks. Sure, some of it will be water loss, but either way, that to me is proof that you don’t need to do anything fancy, or try any magic remedies. More importantly, I’m going to focus on measurements rather than weight alone – especially seeing as I do incorporate weight training in my exercise schedule.
You just need to be healthy, and your body will love you in return.
P.S. Sorry for waffling. ;)